U don't have to tell me what happened, iie already know..

Y Thursday, October 11, 2007

YAY!! II'M BACK!!!

there's nothin much to write.. cos.. once there's something in me.. it's nvr coming out cos iie noe people sure won't wanna read.. then if iie write le, people complain and say wad, iie suck, or wadeva shyt thingy.. this isn't like an "open diary" to me, it's more of like.. reportin wad happened in my life..

NO kidding, today, iie heard many things from Christabel.. about someone.. saying about me.. iie really got very sensitive and a little overreacted.. but now iie have nothing to let out, cos it's like..... if iie say, that person might just happen to see my blog and just.. get offended. At least iie learnt something hard that even iie felt that iie regret a little.. by just.. letting it be. And just let her badmouth u all she care, cos if pride is ur life, then, u don't know what's even more interesting in life. Yes, of cos, pride IS important.. but not THAT.. popularity kind of important. Some people may be good at something and start boasting their talents off to other people.. who is almost like their standard.. and there that person is, trying to boast her talents off to everyone.. imgaine u're the person listening, and u know u can do almost as great as her, how would u feel? Well, ii've experienced it before.. iie felt like, iie wasn't important anymore, once they have some pro to do it, I'm just like a picture frame. And when iie know iie was trying, iie had to try my best. iie may just be better than her one day, who knows..

My dad told me iie do have the music talent.. just that ii'm not ready to show people how good iie am.. Take a bowling ball for an instance.. if it's not polished well, how will it score? And of course, with encouragement, would be even better. But it's sad that this family of mine, have not learnt yet.. the meaning of encouragement.. The only person who TRULY understands me the most is GOD. the one and only.. (: But somehow, when iie really din like playing guzheng, my mum wants me to do the exam.. and my dad wants me to get another distinction this year... I had to do them proud.. But without encouragement.. How can iie ever succeed? Because the only obvious one that's really cheering me on is just GOD.. that's who iie only see! .. why..? Sometimes iie wonder if iie was.. even human.. like thinking back of the past.. when iie bullied my friends.. well, gotta say, not that often.. iie heard iie was ... like um.. not very but, a little anti-social.. But when iie try to change, same things just happen.. !! And ii'm back to my lonely self again..

Everyday, without fail, iie wished iie never had friends...

They create trouble, they create friendship.. they create many good and bad things.. iie never knew that it was that troublesome.. no offence.. but iie do, a little appreciate my friends.. but sometimes, it's better that iie keep it to myself.. Not that iie don't really trust my friends.. is that, there is just limited time to get to know them better, iie just need them to make me have more trust in them.. but some.. like Deborah.. iie told her to keep is a secret abt the 'thing'.. yet.. she didn't.. Maybe the only friends whom iie can trust in my class.. is just Isabel, Jamie and Amanda Chia..

Well, ii'm starting to trust Amanda Tan too.. there's just something wrong.. u know, normally she's active and all.. today.. she was like.. very sad.. and trying to be happy.. that kinda thing..

Sigh, iie can't carry on like this.. iie sound so pessimistic. ._.

Follow ur heart, ur instincts would tell euu wad to do .♥

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