U don't have to tell me what happened, iie already know..

Y Friday, August 31, 2007

EEKKKS!!! I'll just explain everthing to you abt ytd.. on the field.. =.=

Yesterday... 30th August...

It all started like that.. before recess, was P.E. , at 10am.. then later cos tml is ACES day and teachers' day.. While we were practising soccer, need to play on ACES day de.. then later when kick and kick and kick and kick and kick.. and after much kicking.. =.= iie accidentally kick until hit Ah ma's hand.. ><" And during that practise, some of us oso high-kick [dunno how ta spell.. ._. ] siia.. =.= Then someone, dunno who, suddenly kick and hit my stomach niia, wa lao.. dam pain.. ))x Then iie went to rest while iie think Clara or Christabel took over me. After the game, Allison, the leader of reg. no. 1-10, "coach" xD =x said that some of us go group 1 Team 1, while others reserve.. or.. um.. group 2 Team 1.. like substitute la.. sth like that.. =.= Then Allison said sth that shocked my mind.. iie was um.. daydreaming.. ><" Then later she said that iie nid to go with the strong players cos iie play very gd.. then i was thinking.. "um... gd...? GD? um... iie dun like soccer leh!" Then later we went for recess.. BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH ((:

When iie reached home, after supplementary, which was until 4pm.. so um.. reach home 4.30pm? should be around there ba.. then later iie started doing my homework and drinking my crysanthynum [<-- if anyone knows how to spell it, please tell miie!!] tea.. aiyaiyaiyaiyaiyaiyaiyaaaa!! zzz.. then later iie think iie forgot.. iie quarrelled with my sister about "respect" stuff, then iie.. as u know, emo. -.- cried again, but this wasn't as bad as one time.. u see, when iie was really young.. iie dunno wad really happened, iie cant recall it, but, iie remembered iie was somehow angry with.. iie think my parents.. then iie thought of ending my life.. but then again, iie dun wanna.. iie took a big bag to my cupboard, in my room, to pack my clothes in the bag, my maid was sleeping, but when she heard something, she woke up and asked me what iie was doin.. iie told her that iie was very angry with [ forgot who ] and iie wanna li jia chu zou.. then she said, "what?! leave?! Vanessa!! put back ur clothes, i'll put back ur bag......" Then iie broke into tears.. that's when iie always cant control crying so much.. like cry baby like that.. but now at least better la.. ><" I not cry baby liao, then people dunnid bully me until iie kill myself.. X.X I'LL NEED A COUNSELLER THEN!! *faints* Later, iie asked my mum, "Mummy, you haven't answer my question on monday yet..." then she asked me wad.. then iie asked her.. "Can iie go out with my friend next Tuesday to Celebrate Isabel and miie b'day? [which is on wednesday, but no one free.. ] we watching Ratatouille.. <-- or how euu spell that? =.= Then when my mum said no, iie said um, a soft okay.. then iie went to my room, closed my door, and continued with my homework.. my eyes welled up with tears, Telling myself not to cry, iie stopped doing my homework and mash my head in my pillow screaming away, iie couldn't really har myself scream cos, maybe it wasn't that loud.. iie cant talk loud.. ><" cannot be a teacher.. if iie talk loud, my voice the next day, gone liao.. ><" That's why no one came in and question me why iie was screaming..

Oh yeah, here's the good news : When iie din expect to get 54/60 for science... iie got a shock TODAY!! cos it.. WAS MIIE!!! IIE GOT A COOOMPLEEETEE SHOCK!! dam happy siia.. ><" now all iie hope is I'll at least get an 'A' sigh.. well, tml's teachers' day.. better put a smile on my face! ((:

Today.. 31st August.. Friday.. Teachers' Day..

I seriously gotta take a break! our Team, team 1, were the last one.. previously iie heard that our class was the 3rd.. then 4th.. or sth like that.. so unfair la.. the teacher ming ming say oredi cannot use hand to catch ball, the gal go use her hand, it's unfair u know, or else our class can score many goals and get at least 3rd okay! then okay, she use hand, nvm, worse still, use leg siia! wa kao! where can lyydatt lor!! PURITY CHEATER BUGS LA! so unfair! now both of us oso nvr benefit cos they use hand and leg and with my group's strength, we managed to keep them out of the goal... eh-hem!! *coughs* *coughs* xD Later, we got penalty.. cos Abigail went to kick outside the white line there.. -.- Then later, iie was focusing on the gal that was gonna shoot in the goal.. the "angle" then iie thought in my mind.. *miss! havd strong feeling gonna miss le!!* YESH!!! MISSED!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!!! in the end, we lost due to our team.. the unfair team of the JUNGLE PURITY! no offence.. =x But they cheat lo... who cares la. just game.. they oso nvr get 1st, 2nd or 3rd either.. so.. no hard feelings.. later the superstar group rehearsed [run through only] Then quickly ran down to the canteen to join the feast the class brought [got cake la.. got marshmallows la... got drinks la.. ICE OSO HAVE!! etc..]

Later we ran quickly up the hall again and waitied for our turn to go out there and sing.. but iie still felt uncomfortable.. standing there just like statue.. abit too.. zzz... like embarrassing urself..so dumb lo, then if we dun perform--> Denise Foo, Li Keng, Jamie and miie, i bet Ms Lee won't even care oredi la.. -.- judging on the face she had today.. sigh.. it'slike we're not important.. like "extras" get it? And iie hate being an "extra" because being one, reminds me last time when iie walked into my cousin's room, my sister, pei ern, si en.. and iie think shi hui oso ba.. they all were talking abt stuff they say that iie was too young to know.. then iie was like, iie just wanna play the computer, cant iie?? Then my sis said, " Vaness! go out la!! u very EXTRA leh!! " Then, iie was speaking in my mind, " one i'm not Vaness, reminds me of the guy--> Vanness.. -.- 2nd, iie just wanna use the comp! who would wanna listen to you and YOUR counsins talk.. i mean, seriously, they don't act like my cousins at all.. act like i'm just a .. friend to them.. who seldom speaks to them.. ._. this is how pathetic my life is.. last time and still going on now.. just because shi hui and pei ern both sec 4 now, and my sis and si en sec 3.. [si en--> studying in JC now] doesn't mea i'm too young for everything?!?! they were once my age u know.. -.- and often if we all go out together, iie normally keep quiet until they ask me whether they wan me to play anot.. but got one time when they asked so, my sis said, " dun wan la.. she too young la.. won't understand.. " Then i'll keep quiet.. staring at something.. and start to daydream.. trying to forget about it for just that short period of time.. it's not easy! but i'm quite used to it.. now that iie don't really see my cousins that often.. somehow, i just take it that.. i don't have cousins.. and just pretend they are my sister's imaginary cousins.. no offences.. but.. that's what iie do..

I'll still cant get over facts that are really big.. and "overtaking" my dreams.. i may "sound selfish" but, that's how iie feel.. iie just dunno why iie cant stop bearing grudges against people who stole my dream.. and like.. cant be best in the school.. so that people would know me.. and iie could make more friends..? Well.. that stupid dream of mine all faded away and iie grew up.. iie begin to think.. friends are always there when euu need them.. what for look for "fan friends" when iie have my true ones? But somehow, little did iie know.. iie felt the same when iie was a loner last year.. iie don't go out with my friends for recess, iie don't do anything with anyone.. unless asking for homework.. other than that.. nothing .

This year, iie have a best friend, in fact, like a sister to me, Isabel, wo de meiix . ^^ She's a really xin di shang liang de ren.. but careful.. don't get too close her.. or else, u might just have broken bones.. ((x jkjkjk.. dun be sh0 mean to her.. hmm.. I'll tell you one funny part and FREAKKIN' INCIDENT!! eeekks!! first the ikki part.. when it was gonna be the idian dance item, the superstar wanted to go in.. and have air-con.. LOL!! heyy!! but it really was very hot outside.. -.- can perspire like mad siia. later, when iie squeezed in, iie saw someone spraying insecticides on the mike control system or sth like that.. i'm not really sure.. =.= then my friend told me.. it was a GREEDING GROUND!! there were many big flies and ants.. AHHHHHH!! INSECTS LIKE THEM!! FREAKKIN' ME OUT!! then, in the end, the superstar group was warned byu the indian teacher who said, "THOSE WHOA RE NOT PERFORMING LATER, PLEASE STAY OUTSIDE!" then iie almost rolled my eyes.. cos it's like.. she's right beside me.. as if i'm the only one inside.. !! >=O iie jumped many times of the ground to avoid the flies.. blabla.. then iie finally came out safe and sound.. later after it was all sweeped out.. a REALLY LARGE AMOUNT OF THEM!! xP It was time for the commercial.. the GATSBY commercial.. LOL~~ iie cant remember the gal's name.. ><" okay, but since, iie guess she's malay, malay gal.. =x ><" then chinese gal.. cos i really dunno their names!! ><" okay..

Hmm... malay girl was fustrated like saying got bad hair day or sth.. chinese gal comes in and say, "See! My hair is so beautiful!" and malay gal "wows" .. Then later after malay gal aplies it on her hair, both of them walk down the street, flipping their hair, while 4 cars/people were driving.. during the flip, 4 cars/people stared at them.. *WOAH..* they bumped into each other.. then the "walking down the streets" malay + chinese gal walk to the other side of the stage le ... LOL!!! so funny.. maybe i'm telling' u.. but u might not luagh but.. u should've been there!! it was dam funny!! sheeesh.. tired oredi.. ><"

bwaiix .

Follow ur heart, ur instincts would tell euu wad to do .♥

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